Have you got over Rain yet?
It has been a long CNY weekend. Many of my colleagues are not back yet fr leave. So a friend called me up in the office after 6 days and asked so have you got over Rain yet? And I slowly answered aaa.....I'm afraid not....
Last night, I was communicating wt some of Bi other fans in the other part of the world. US to be exact. Wild bunch of happy, honest and fun women, my age and even older. They were unabashed to shout out or proclaimed their love, admiration and infatuation towards Rain. Me on the other hand....filled wt reservations although I know I don't have to bcos no one will judge me, everybody is equally crazy over him. Want a piece of him.
Maybe that's it. I don't want a piece of him! I don't want to be his fan!!
I just want to be a friend.
A friend doesn't care about who you are dating as long as both you and your partner is happy. Doesn't have to dig about your news in the net/paper bcos a friend will call or write you a one liner email to keep in touch and update you and even if its once or twice in a year but that's sufficient enough. And when you are no longer a chart topping superstar..a friend will always be there to laugh at your old antics when you were famous and still brag about how good you were then.
But I guess that is too much to ask for. Duh!! of cos every fans want to be Bi-Rain's friend. Who am I trying to kid?
Is it wrong to be feeling or acting this way? Sometimes, no make that most of the time...I do felt ridiculous especially when I couldn't stop thinking bout things I read or video that I watched that involved Bi. Sometimes I also felt suffocated and wondering when this is all going to be over.
I guess only time will tell.
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I sometimes laugh when I read your problem (almost) liking Rain. The younger the fan the less they try to analyze why they like him or wonder how long they will feel this way.
I too wonder when it will end this wonderful, but puzzling attraction will end. I'll be watching something non-related to Rain and all of a sudden I think "what's the matter with me?" "Can't I stop thinking about him?" I too think how I could be a big sister to him or friend, but in the end I throw my good sense out the window and I know my desire is not to be a sister or friend.
I think women like us have developed the psychological "Rain Syndrome," and I don't know if it's curable. Even when he doesn't look as good...it doesn't matter what he looks like. If you have the "syndrome" it never leaves.
I try to get more interested in other actors and entertainers to get my mind off of him. It works for a short time, but never lasts. Maybe if he does something really gross I can recover...but no I'll make excuses for him and it won't be over.
Good luck to us both!
Oh Charlie, you know me too well!!You meant women like you n me contracted this syndrome (Rain virus) and hv no cure for it?? Like the bird flu?? or we purposely ignore the cure? no thanks to u for updating his latest news on ur website ;-)
ps/but i'm happy to know -im not in this alone TQ
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